Updates, Adventures, and Skydiving

Dang it!

I keep telling myself I’m going to start blogging on a more regular basis again, but I either a) get too busy b) get too lazy or c) totally forget!

So what’s been going on? Not a WHOLE lot, life has been awesome (minus a flat tire haha) and I’m savoring it!

I guess I owe an update on the homefront! 🙂

  • BIRTHDAY: I’m officially 23 as of Feb 12! 22 was an epic year, but I feel like 23 has a lot of potential to surpass it! Bring on the fun times!!
  • SCHOOL: Well, it was looking promising for the program I’d been pursuing at Universty of Arizona, but state program/project funding has put a damper on things. I’m not sure if they’ll get projects approved by this fall, so I’ve started applying to other schools and investigating new programs. I won’t get into details as of now, but it’s looking like BIG BIG AMAZING things could be happening…abroad.
  • WORK: Still loving my part time job at Vitamin Shoppe. I’m learning so much about vitamins and supplements, meeting new people, and laughing a ton with my awesome co-workers. It’s just a fun atmosphere to be a part of!
  • WEIGHTLIFTING/FITNESS: Since this fall may be chaotic, I decided to pursue one of my biggest dreams…I finally signed up for my first figure competition in May!! I’m working with my awesome coach from INOV8 elite performance whom I’ve been with for about 1.5 years and prep has begun. I’m so excited for this new journey and cannot wait to hit the stage! Now to keep practicing walking in my heels haha
  • BUCKET LIST: For my 23rd b-day, my parents surprised me with an indoor skydiving experience!! It was SO fun checking that off the bucket list!! And in March, I’ll be checking off another big dream item — attending the Arnold Expo in Ohio!! BEYOND excited for that!!

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Well that’s about it, not a whole lot of stuff, but exciting things are brewing! I’m just stoked to see what 2015 holds, it’s gonna be an awesome year!! 😀

Thanks again to anyone still reading! Be on the lookout for a long overdue Wanderlust Wednesday post! 🙂

Life Updates

Whoa! Sorry for my random “fall-off-the-face-of-the-earth” absence; it’s been awhile since I’ve made a post here. I promise I’m still alive!!!

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Life has been fantastic. Busy but fantastic!

I feel like I owe anyone who’s still reading a few updates on the homefront:

WORK: I snagged a part time job at local Vitamin Shoppe and have been LOVING every millisecond of it. My co-workers/managers are awesome, I’m learning a ton about supplementation as well as interacting with people, and I feel so accepted among friends who share similar goals. I wouldn’t trade it for the world! God’s timing is truly perfect.

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SCHOOL: I’m still focusing on going to grad school next fall and have a phone interview next week with the professor I’ve been talking to for the past 6ish months. So excited to hear about the available projects he’s got lined up! 🙂 After taking time off from academics, I’m ready to get back to learning and being a fish geek haha!

HOLIDAY SEASON: Thanksgiving and Christmas are coming….ummmmm WHAT?! I’m in the biggest time warp in the history of ever. I’m just now getting used to the fact I have swap my shorts for pants when I go outdoors. It SNOWED here earlier this week. WTF TEXAS?!?! Also sorta started the Christmas shopping process, but I’ve been a major slacker haha

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VOLUNTEERING: There’s a cool wildlife refuge/museum near my neighborhood, so I signed up to volunteer with animal care and special events. I’ve only been able to go once due to my work schedule, but it was cool! I look forward to going when I get more down time.

GYM: Training has been AMAZING. I really feel like I’m becoming more in-tune with my RPE as well as my mind-muscle connection. My mental state is better than it’s been in eons and I couldn’t be more appreciative to my coach for helping work through negative thoughts that occasionally try to creep in my noggin. A lot of those thoughts stem from getting frustrated at myself since it’s been hard putting on weight (I mean heck I’m maintaining on 575g carbs a day). Celiac probably doesn’t help, but I officially have the metabolism of a 9 year old boy. By focusing on my overall progress rather than tiny snapshots from month to month, I’ve been able to keep a lot of negativity at bay. (Sorry for the picture of me in my skivvies). Just gotta keep eating hard, training hard, and resting hard to get to the stage *hopefully* at the end of next year.

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So that’s about it, nothing too crazy exciting. I wish I could say I got abducted by aliens or was a stunt double in a movie or something haha! I’m just eager to get back on the Wanderlust Wednesday train 🙂 I still have some hikes to recap from Arizona, so be on the lookout for new posts soon!

Thanks to anyone who’s still reading! Wishing everyone a wonderful Thanksgiving! 🙂

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Time of Discovery

So, I have a confession to make.

Something’s been eroding away my confidence and happiness lately. The thoughts that have been filling my mind aren’t friendly–they are filled with fear. Anxiety. Confusion. Guilt. Each thought desperately tries to sabotage my progress by whispering words of doubt in my ear.

What is the source of this stress?

Graduating college.

It’s thrown me for a loop.

I’ve always centered my life around my education and I’m having a hard time coming to grips that it’s all finished. I devoted 110% of myself into my schoolwork; my summa cum laude degree on the wall proves that. People assume I’m going to continue my education with a Master’s or PhD, but I don’t want to go back. I’m done. Burned out.

It’s time to live in the real world, but I’m not sure I’m ready for that.

I feel guilty when my classmates and peers post online about already having jobs…while I’m still looking and applying like mad. I know it’s only been 2 months since I graduated, but I feel like it’s been longer. I don’t want to be a burden to my parents. I don’t want to have to rely on them; they’ve already provided me with so much.

So I guess it’s safe to say, I’m in that post-college, “what-now?” phase of life and it’s a lot harder than I imagined. I don’t know what I want to do with my life. I’m thankful to have a science degree to allow me to have more job opportunities, and thankful I have no student loans to pay off, but I’m at a stand-still with what I want my life to become. I have to realize that it’s okay not to know RIGHT NOW.

But, I do know a few things…

I have dreams. Big dreams. I want to make a mark on the world. I want my life to have meaning and impact.

I love weightlifting, the gym, and bodybuilding.

I love the outdoors and hiking.

I love nutrition and fueling my body as an athlete.

I love meeting new people and seeing new cultures.

I love traveling.

I love animals of all shapes and sizes.

I love fighter jets.

I love biology and taxonomy.

I love writing.

I love Egyptology.

I love photography, even if I’m not the best at it. 😉

I love reading and learning new things.

I know what I like and what I don’t like. These dreams make me who I am. In the past, I wouldn’t feel comfortable sharing what I love for fear of mockery or judgment. But that’s the past and I like the person I’ve become. So, it’s not a matter of finding myself or passion, it’s more like…the difficulty of deciding which passion to pursue.

I’m thankful for my parents for allowing me to have this time to think and pray. I know God has a plan for my future and I’m excited to see what that entails, but sometimes I get impatient. I want it to happen on my timeline, but I have to have faith that He is in control. I know I’ll make mistakes along the way, but I’ll get back to the path and plan He’s set in place.

I want to live my best life.

So although I don’t know what I want to do right now, I’m excited to see what unfolds.

Life isn’t a race. It’s about finding yourself, being imperfect, embracing the confusion, channeling stress into something productive.

This post is all over the place, but basically, my plan of action for this confusing phase of life is to #1 keep praying and trusting God #2 travel as much as possible to learn more about myself #3 continue applying to jobs and #4 RELAX. And until this phase is over, I’ll use my present actions as a weapon against my anxious thoughts about the future.

It’s time for me to embrace the now and relish this time of discovery.